The first thing is my future. I've learned confidence is key - present a smooth story and only rarely will someone actually ask you why you actually want to go to law school. The answer to this is not as smooth. I like academics, I say. I like working hard and solving problems. Yeah? Or I could admit that I'm just really afraid I'll never get a job in communications - there are no jobs, right now.
And so what will I do? I want to go traveling, I think. I might move to Victoria for a few months, and then Australia. I want to throw on a backpack and lululemons and get out of here. There's so much to think about, though, and so much money to save.
2) I've also been thinking about the universe. I've decided to believe in it. I don't really care why or how or what, and I don't care to be asked about it. I believe, I think, in something that needs to be listened to. I'm cracking open my sternum, my back, my hips and letting in what may. My eyes are open and I am finally here.
I don't think it matters, but I spend my time in yoga. I realized the other day that I'm sending prayers to something, anyhow. I don't think any harm can possibly come from believing in the universe, in believing in the power of quiet and the power of self. I dedicate every yoga practice to feeling happy and to myself, and I think that is okay.
